我懷念的

我懷念的 - 孫燕姿

我問為什麼那女孩傳簡訊給我
而你為什麼 不解釋低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我 不願意敷衍我
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受

我懷念的 是無話不說
我懷念的 是一起作夢
我懷念的 是爭吵以後還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰 記得 誰 忘了

想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受

我懷念的 是無話不說
我懷念的 是一起作夢
我懷念的 是爭吵以後還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰 忘了

我懷念的 是無言感動
我懷念的 是絕對熾熱
我懷念的 是你很激動求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後 也記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧 最美的煙火 最長的相擁

誰愛得太自由 誰過頭太遠了
誰要走我的心 誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走 誰忘了看著我
誰讓愛變沉重 誰忘了要給你溫柔

我懷念的
我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手 最暖的胸口

我放手 我讓座 假灑脫
誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了 所以我 沒有哭 沒有說

There's something hugely addictive about this song. Been listening to it the entire day and i cant get it outta my mind.

Thx for the tags. Proper update when i get the time =)

Integrated? Or Not.

sinxcosxtanxcosecxsecxcotxdydxtrigofomulaalgebrainversetrigobyparts
substitutionexponentiallogarithmareavolumepowerplusoneovernewpower
upperlimitlowerlimitdxdtfprimedoubleanglefomulacompletingthesquare
volumeofspherevolumeofpyramidmathsdrivesmecrazylikeneverbefore.

This is what maths does to you. Now I have one hour for a quick nap b4 battling the challenges of thursday.

Special thanks to dilmah blackcurrent tea and hillsongs for keeping my head off the table.

Integrating Integration.

So its Goodbye to Cindy Ong my scandalous friend. Poor her she's gonna be in melbourne all by herself fo what's going to seem like eternity. What to do when ur living in a meritocratic society. Slowly one by one friends leave. Girls are gonna enter uni and boys are gonna serve their time. Tough for poor me who has to mug it out (again) with a whole cohort of highly competitive muggers. But face it, people move on. Even friends have to get on with their lives.


Seeing the 30th running the welcoming today really made me miss the 29th (again). I'll never get tired of missing them, cos they are the ones that revolutionised my thoughts and perspectives. More than anyone else, they are my teachers. Ahh i should really stop talking about them. Gmail's been a tad quiet lately though.


Came home slightly earlier, thinking that i would have abit more time to study for the integration test tomorrow. Honestly, its the only thing thats been bugging me for the entire week as its my weakest topic. Anw, got home, felt abit tired so i took a 'short' nap. The next time i woke up, the sun had already set. The entire room was dark except for the lights flickering from the screensaver. A look up at the digital clock - in BOLD RED the numbers 22:58 loomed over me. Siao liao lah.


So now im here. After settling some stuff and getting blogging out of my mind, its integration till dawn. I just hope the concept of integration will be integrated into my brain before my heavy head gets integrated onto the desk.

The Starthrower

Once upon a time, there was a wise man, much like Eiseley himself, who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up. As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.

As he got closer, he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?" The young man paused, looked up and replied "Throwing starfish into the ocean."

"I guess I should have asked, Why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?"

"The sun is up and the tide is going out. And if I don't throw them in they'll die."

"But young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!"

The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves. "It made a difference for that one!"

You see, what that young man's actions represent is something that is special in each and everyone of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference. And if we can, like that young man, become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our vision the power to shape the future.

disciminatED.

Look what i found at the bottom of D&D 2008 table form on litespeed.

Important:
1. ......
2. ......
.
.
6. Only current JC 2 students of NYJC are allowed to form members of the table. Strictly no JC 2 repeat students are allowed.


SMLJ? Not that i desperately want to go to the dinner (its at some koyak regent hotel and costs more than our one at marriot - i think), but the thing is there are only like 5 of us around, must they delibrately add a point no. 6 to a mass broadcast just to discriminate the 5 of us? They could have just approached us personally to inform us! And they had to include the word STRICTLY, like as if i will try to adopt a pseudonym and attempt to get in. Urgh. I take this as a personal attack and i am VERY OFFFENDED.

Please do not misunderstand, i take no offense in being disallowed to go. Im just very pissed that they delibrately made an attempt to highlight our uniqueness in a mass broadcast - which was completely unnecessary.



To think we are studying discrimination in GP lecture.

It's hard to be David, or even Superman.

People tell you: You're not Superman. Unfortunately, one is seldom Superman by choice, but often by appointment. However, He who appoints will also sustain, in that i have faith.


There's so many things i want to accomplish this year. Some carried forward from years ago, some half done, some not even started. However, somehow somewhere i lost sight of the vision. I need to find it back but it requires much more than determination. There's so many things i need to put aside, things i need to get rid off. Easier said than done.


Was reading up abit during my long arduous wait at the polyclinic (which was worth it becaused i earned a 2 days MC). Max Lucado talks about how David faced Goliath.

"So it was, when the Philistine arose and came and drew near to meet David, that David hurried and ran toward the army to meet the Philistine" (1Sam 17:48)

Even as the giant approached, filled with confidence David hurried forward to meet him. Instead of fleeing or hiding, David was eager to face his giant. How many of us are even brave enough to look at our problems in the face? Much less be eager to overcome them.


There are so many more revelations from how David slayed goliath but i think this part had impacted me the most.


It's been a phenomenal day today but im ever more ready to face the challenges of tommorow.


Note: If you are interested to read more about how young David killed goliath, the story is in 1Sam 13. You can easily read it online @ www.biblegateway.com. Max Lucado's "Facing Your Giants" available at attributes, and I suppose most other christian bookstores.

Sidenote: Thx loads to Clarence for blessing me with the book =)

blues.

I sent that pic of the wrecked lambo to STomp and it got published on ST!(Sat's papers i think) Hah. Too bad no cash reward for that.


CNY visiting was a bore. Year by year it just gets more mundane. If not for the Ang Paos, i would seriously rather stay home and play CS - or even to just study. However being around with friends on CNY is a totally different story. Watched kungfu dunk with RK and gang @ AMKhub on fri night; It was a rather silly show but i admit Jay was cute laa. After that chionged down to Cine to catch Sweeny Todd with sop and mixue; Nice, but utterly gruesome-Urgh. Had a drink after that and subsequently headed home to SLEEEEP (got home at like 4.30 am laa, zzzz).


Up early the next day and its visiting with councillors (yippee!). Wei Hao's mum whips a decent curry and we all had our fill early in the morning. After that we went to Veron's and I parted council for steamboat at Edmund's place.

BBQ @ Jay's place later at night. went back and saw all th guys from 4/5 and i realised that i really really missed them. Have been so detached from that bunch for so long. seeing them again really warmed my heart. Though all of us have matured in our own ways, coming together and sharing about our past foolishness is always a pleasure. I really do hope i see more of them in the coming days.


Combined steamboat (Yes, again) with 9 CGs tday at liang seah st. We booked the whole outlet for ourselves and we bussed down aft service. You know when ET zone comes together, you'll hear us from a mile away. We were bloody noisy but that's the kind of atmosphere that binds us. Xiao En must have been so touched to have so many people sing her a b'dae song at the same time. Anyway food was so so. Lesson learnt: nv take 'Ma La' steamboat again.


Stomach's been churning ever since i got home. Im supposed to be doing some econs but- oh well... Maybe i should go on M.C. tmr - post CNY blues.


And i haven got an explanation for being AWOL on Wed. Die ah.

The Pot Calling The Kettle Black

Its abit lag but I still must blog about this. Recently a variety show in Taiwan mocked at us Singaporeans for our english. here's the clip:





Man Im damn proud of Singlish and Im 100% sure our singlish is more proficient than their "standard english".

Seriously - do they know what they are saying? They can't even address their fansi (fans) properly. This clip realli got me mad.

First they call us peesai, now they mock our english. If one day their bank run out of money i chopstamp guarantee Temasek/GIC will just sit down and laugh. And if one of their poor villages get wiped out by some tsunami, i chopstamp confirm our C-130s will stay in the hanger. And if one day sway sway a taiwanese vandalise our walls, i 100% chop stamp guarantee that even if MaYingJiu come out we will still cane that boy - double somemore.


Before you comment about the speck in your brother's eye, first remove the plank in your own eye.

Priceless Adventure

Re-landscaping cost: $9,000
New road barricade: $3,500
Car: $1.1 Million

Crashing your lamborghini into the road divider
(and escape alive): PRICELESS



Caught on cam by my dad off stevens road. Looking at the aftermath, driver must have been travelling pretty darn quick. Notice the ravaged metal barricade thingy thats supposed to be by the side of the road. The whole damn thing's wrecked and propped overhead. The concrete thing that's supposed to hold it to the ground now lays lifelessly afar from where its supposed to be.

Someone's getting more than a earful when he gets home.

Larger Than Life?

Im starting anew with this new address. Putting behind my childish past. Though I know nothings gonna stop them from haunting me someday.


I want to blog but I don't really know what to say. There's so much emotion I want to express but emotions are not words. Or maybe my vocabulary is simply not up to it. I wish I were famous but I'm infamous. I stick out like a sore thumb, like a indian in chinatown or something. I constantly find myself being wrapped up in expectations. As i much as i want to fulfil them, I cant do everything at one go. Suddenly i feel so powerless over the circumstances. I am but one man. Of cos, sermons have long taught me how to believe otherwise, but your worldy self often catches up with you.


No math clinic today. So I'm loitering in the lab waiting for dinner time where i'll meet up n233 and the gang. Work is accumulating but its simply not the right time. I think i need to get out and do something larger than life.